Well here's a cap of things been going on...

I've had three patients flatline on me in two days that were under my care...I've had nothing but bad news about my grandmother who's now in the hospital....my sister is having complications on her back and seems to need surgerty....my paycheck was low but i'll be able to pay for rent nothing else no food or anything....Had two friends tell me they wanted nothing to do with me....and i don't know what to feel anymore....i'm more than likely going to loose my job at the hospital, and they're probably going to find a way to take my nursing liscence.....I just don't know what to feel anymore....

I've been trying so hard to do good and be happy and work hard...and in the ends all I'm getting is everyone leaving or vanishing, and failure upon failure.....


Is it so bad for me to just want to be held right now?.... No one wants to do that....

-c